Fascinating!!! I think I hate my family

I truly do.
What a fucking bunch of conniving selfish morons.
I guess I want to vent.
I feel the hatred and rage coming up through my veins all the way up to my head.
I just don't understand.
I'm happiest away from them.
I feel closer to strangers than I do my own flesh and blood.
What a bunch of fucking idiots.
ALL OF THEM!
They can go FUCK themselves!
should I tell them? I wonder.
I think I'll just what I did before...just stay away.
Life is too short to hang around assholes, especially smelly ones.
I should just move on...
Physically or in my head?
I guess there is no difference.
I'm listening to "god is a dj"
I'm happy. It's happy music.
My head is bobbing up and down.
Life is good again.
They can just go fuck themselves.
Actually, there is one...yeah but she's crazy.
Never mind.
I will paint
I will paint
I will paint
large paintings
large paintings
beautiful paintings

Fascinating!!! I think I hate my family

I truly do.
What a fucking bunch of conniving selfish morons.
I guess I want to vent.
I feel the hatred and rage coming up through my veins all the way up to my head.
I just don't understand.
I'm happiest away from them.
I feel closer to strangers than I do my own flesh and blood.
What a bunch of fucking idiots.
ALL OF THEM!
They can go FUCK themselves!
should I tell them? I wonder.
I think I'll just what I did before...just stay away.
Life is too short to hang around assholes, especially smelly ones.
I should just move on...
Physically or in my head?
I guess there is no difference.
I'm listening to "god is a dj"
I'm happy. It's happy music.
My head is bobbing up and down.
Life is good again.
They can just go fuck themselves.
Actually, there is one...yeah but she's crazy.
Never mind.
I will paint
I will paint
I will paint
large paintings
large paintings
beautiful paintings

I'm home?

So here I am back in Guadeloupe.
It's weird being here...
I've been living in St. Louis for 20 years now and now I'm in Guadeloupe, my home country.
I feel like I know this place and at the same time I don't.
I operate through the system but I feel like it's a dream.
It's almost as if I'm still in St. Louis in the "real" world, the awake world but I can't do anything in it and Guadeloupe is the dream world where I move around and make things happen.
I have been painting again, which is good. I've sold both paintings I've made, which is better.

I'm home?

So here I am back in Guadeloupe.
It's weird being here...
I've been living in St. Louis for 20 years now and now I'm in Guadeloupe, my home country.
I feel like I know this place and at the same time I don't.
I operate through the system but I feel like it's a dream.
It's almost as if I'm still in St. Louis in the "real" world, the awake world but I can't do anything in it and Guadeloupe is the dream world where I move around and make things happen.
I have been painting again, which is good. I've sold both paintings I've made, which is better.