Just a dreamer...

I need a hot, passionate woman that can't stand to be away from me. I need a woman that would get wet just thinking about me, one that would...Aah! Nevermind. Who am I kidding...I'm just a dreamer... A passionate dreamer lost in a world of gain, betrayal and secrets....

I'm a strong dreamer tho... I shall conjure her from wherever she is, and she will come...my passionate lover...

what happened...

Ok some of you have asked what happened, why did we break up. Not to beat a dead horse, but here's the story.

3 things broke the engagement and they all have to do with trust issues...

I took her in, with her baby in my apartment. I took the metro so she could have the car to go to work.

I took her in my heart fully.

Note that this is only the bad side of our relationship. We had some beautiful and very intimate moments.

I had 2 piece in a show called 'Naughti Gras'. We both were suppose to go but at the last minute I decided not to go... It was a 2 day event.

She asked if she could go, I said sure; And I was ok with that. I would stay home and watch Bonnie. She would use my car.

One thing troubled me however, her ex, whom she had told me about was going to be there. She told me that this guy has/had a strong influence on her and that's why she wasn't speaking to him anymore. She was staying away.

As she's getting dressed, I can feel her excitement and joy. A joy that she didn't have staying home. She got dressed and wore some very sexy undies and fishnet stocking. I have to pause here to tell you that I had spent the whole day cleaning and setting up our bedroom, dinning room, etc.. because Michele had moved out. I wanted us to enjoy the place to ourselves for the first time.

Any way, as she's getting dressed, I'm starting to feel annoyed, jealous and left out. I share this feeling with her but she really wants to go.

She goes, after 1 1/2 hour, I send her a text to tell her that I'm freaking out and that I don't think I can handle her being there with her ex and alcohol, etc... I'd like her to come home.

She replies: I just got a beer and my friend's band is about to start playing.

I tell her: I guess you've made your choice...

She doesn't reply

2 hours later I say: you probably think that I'm not serious about this.

she doesn't reply

at 12:30 am I send her a final text saying that is was over, we're done.

at that moment she replies: I'm on my way.

She comes home, we argue. I told her how dare she blew me off like that and that I want her out. We talk things, she apologized for being so blowing me off. We decided to give it one more chance.

The next day, all day long, she keeps getting these texts. I ask her who they're from. They're from her ex. A dozen texts later, he text her: why don't you come over to my place, you can bring Bonnie. So I asked her what her reply was, she said: I don't have a car!?!

I was furious! Her reply was I don't have a car?!?!? so I tell her if she knows how this looks?

As we're arguing about that, he texts again. I say: Is that him again? she says yes, I say: let me see and I sit next to her and she starts to pull the phone towards her so that I can't see the screen. This is where I lost it and I yanked the phone out of her hands and when I saw myself doing that, I knew it was over. I gave her the phone back and I told her to leave.

She called her parents to come pick her up and packed while crying. She said she was sorry, and that it's only at that moment that she sees everything I had done for her.

So now, I'm single again. We talked after that, I asked her if she was with her ex, she said no and that she never wants to see him again.

Then she blocked me as a friend on facebook but kept all the nice photos I tagged in.

She tried to come back but I told her no. I can no longer trust her and that there needs to be consequences to her actions. That was half the truth. I really started enjoying living here by myself.

She was worried about her cat, she would have to put him in a shelter. I told her to leave him. I'll take care of him until she has her own place.

So now I have 3 cats, all males :)

That's pretty much it. I really love her, but she's so young. I even told her that I understand her behavior. I was  young and selfish as well.