nude figure

 

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Ok, this is the 3rd of my charcoal drawings. I guess I have to start on my acrylics for my show that's in 3 days. lol.

By the way, I love love love drawing the figure. I think I could do the figure in charcoal all day long and everyday.

Anyway, I doubt anyone looks at this blog and if they do never leave a message...how rude! lol

 

native american child

 

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Ok, so I'm on a roll, the next one should be a body...

Hum....this is for a Catholic school so...I don't know how sexy I can make the pose... I guess we'll find out hehe.

 

ryan portrait

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This is my latest work. It's charcoal on mylar. It about 16 inches across and 24 down. I really like this piece and I intend to enter it in a juried show at Fontbonne. I hope I win because the first prize is $1000, second $500 and third $250.

So today, I feel much better...It comes in waves but what a difference a day makes.

l i f e   i s   g o o d

J G D

I have to move on...

This is hard...I've been here before...sort of.

A clean break is all I need. Run, run, don't look back or you'll turn into a pillar of salt, frozen in time, frozen in pain.

My heart is agitated in fear, in pain waiting for the final blow, the final crush.

I believe did the right thing. It an endless vortex...the black hole...my love.

I'm too weak to face it all. I can't sit on the sidelines anymore. I wish I could, I wish I could be there for you.  In a way I'am...

I can only loose so many feathers...before I can't fly anymore, and fly I must.

I will soar high up in the heavenly skies, I will think of you when I'm well.

I will fly in search for just a moment, a place of ease where I can rebuild and be reborn.

Out of my ashes I will feel again, trust again, love again.

So long my love...

I truly love you.

J.

Thanksgiving.Meditation...again

So I started meditating again... I can't believe I ever stopped.

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I   f e e l   s o   g o o d . . .

I've also changed my diet again. I'm avoiding sugar, wheat, fried stuff and alcohol however I will make an exception for Thanksgiving.

I'm invited at 4 different places. I think I can only do 2 of them.

So I'm thankful to have this beautiful healthy body, my mom, nomique, the boys, Art, my cats, Maharishi, TM, yummy food, beautiful transcending music, my feelings, my mind, close friends, earth and you.

Mapping what I want.

I can't believe I'm doing this. Actually I've already wrote out the list.

Here are the categories of my life list, hehehe,  Home, Mate, Career, Health. All I need now is to get some photos. I'm thinking about making a poster out of it. I'm so unfocused that if I don't do that, I'd probably float until I die. My cousin calls me 'the jellyfish'...

Under home I have the following:

• highrise loft


• bright


• ocean or lake view


• art studio


• zen

Under Mate:

• hippie style


• healthy


• soft


• playful


• cheerful


• loving


• centered


• stable


• beautiful

Career:

• art


• college/university teacher


• $4000 per month


• east or west coast and maybe chicago


• urban


• fun

Health:

• yoga


• T.M.


• balanced


• light workout


• sex

Any thoughts? Anyone?

Yikes, I have to study!

What did I get myself into? lol
I have to take a bunch of none art classes :((
Ok, I just have to suck it up, bite down and finish this damn thing. hehehe.

Back to school

Ok, so I'm going back to school. I'm going to Fontbonne.
I've decided to finally finish my degrees. I'll get a BFA and then an MFA.
After I've completed my studies I will look to teach in a University.
The plan is to do that for 20 years and then retire.

By the way, here's one of my latest henna design...Enjoy!

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Playing video games!

So I'm playing Fallout 3, it's a really cool game and yes, I'm a video game geek. It reminds me a bit of Bioshock, another really really cool game. I can't wait for Bioshock 2 to come out. I'm also waiting for Mass Effect 2, the first one was awesome!

I'm looking for a mate for the Fall and Winter season.

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One of my henna muse

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This is a sample of my henna work. I love to do it all over the body

Albuquerque

My show in Carlsbad!!!

I guess I have to back up a little. It's been a while since I've posted anything here.
I went to Carlsbad California to an artfair. I really enjoyed myself and met some really cool people. If I hadn't done so many drugs when I was younger I'd remember their names. I do however remember Judy Jewel. I really liked her work.
Ok, so here are some pics of my time there.

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fall 2009

so I decided to give worldpress a try. I don't think that blogger is bad but I just like to change things once in a while :).

I'm back in The Lou and for the first time, I'm really happy about that.

The Fall season is upon us and it just happens to be my favorite season. I think I'll need to find me a lover for the cold season.
Wouldn't it be cool to find a lover for just the seasons? Almost like a lease with option to renew...hum, I think I'm on to something. It would take a whole lot of imaginary pressure off.

Carlsbad!

So I've been accepted in the Carlsbad art fair. Yaaay! I'll be in September. I guess now I have to buy my ticket, make a hotel reservation and rent a car. OOoo, I also have paint the pieces for show.

Albuquerque revisited

So here I am again in Albuquerque. it's great to see Nomique again. I'll be here for a week. I'll get to paint as well for my possible art fair in Carlsbad.

Love

I had a nice dream last night.

I was at this big fancy party with rich guests. There was a big pool in the middle of the area and the guests where mingling when my (live) mom arrived with my (death) step father. They walked up to the hot tub. I looked down at the tub and I thought it looked like a giant washing machine. My parents went in. My mom rested on Alain and he held her and kisses her neck with so much love that I felt it. I was looking down at them and as I felt the love emanating from them, I thought: "Every child should see and feel this from their parents, this way they would know what to look for in life.".

Breakfast...no...dinner in Ottawa

 

So the little family left and here I am alone in this big big house. We bought all the canvasses, all 12 of them. I think I will start paingting on Monday, if I can wait that long :).
I have 14 days to create 12 paintings...I think I can do it! The wonderful thing is that my whole show is bought.

This is a photo of my dinner. It's a bowl of organic peaches, kiwis, banana, cereals and soy milk with no sugar added.

I no longer eat sugar, wheat, dairy, fried foods nor do I drink alcohol. Of course I make some exceptions to the rule.
I've decided to stay away from any foods that doesn't have the organic seal of approaval. I can no longer trust the food industry to have my health in mind. Their only concern is the bottom line, money.

I read an interesting article on 7 things you can do to prevent most cancers.

So I'm so confused.

I think it's more confusing because I made the mistake of thinking that I would never be confused like that again, hehehe.
I feel so weird and lost, yes lost and scared.
I feel my life has been flipped upside down yet nothing has changed...weird.
The change must be in me. It's stemming out of me. Maybe that's why it's so scary. If it was coming from the outside, I could hide within me. Where would I hide now, LOL. I have nowhere to go, hehe.

O Canada

So here I am once again in Ottawa.
This time around I went through Montreal and I have to say it was a much better experience with the custom agents.

I feel like I'm having a mid-life crisis. I feel like I'm at a crossroad, a fork. I'm not sure which way to go. I feel a little weak and vulnerable because I feel lost. I'm not sure of myself anymore.
I haven't felt this in sooooo long. I think I like it. I'm usually my best when I'm challenged. Either way, I am learning alot about me.