I'm home?

So here I am back in Guadeloupe.
It's weird being here...
I've been living in St. Louis for 20 years now and now I'm in Guadeloupe, my home country.
I feel like I know this place and at the same time I don't.
I operate through the system but I feel like it's a dream.
It's almost as if I'm still in St. Louis in the "real" world, the awake world but I can't do anything in it and Guadeloupe is the dream world where I move around and make things happen.
I have been painting again, which is good. I've sold both paintings I've made, which is better.