It seems that all our live is spent on tomorrow or some betterment of ourselves. Somehow no matter what we have is just not enough. It seems to create a certain feeling of uneasiness inside, a certain dis-satisfaction and when I have that feeling I cannot enjoy or even see what's going on around me such as the wind in the tree branches, the birds sharing a tree with squirels on even the deathening silence of it all. Noooooo, I'm too preoccupied with my "career", my "future", will you like me, am I good enough, will I be rejected by the group. This happens in high school and throughout our lives. What a hell! My feelings and mental state depending on others. If there is such a thing as hell this would be it.
Now of course the "system" doesn't want you to think or be outside the box even if they tell you to.
If one person is not affected by the emotional manipulations of the group then he is a threat to this system. It's like having no buttons to push. Without these buttons they can't convince you to slave your whole life for a system that promises a beautiful retirement. Oh yeah! give me your prime lives. I don't buy it! Don't get me wrong, the system has its place. It's great to have a system for roads, buildings, electricity, water, etc... anything material. But this is where it stops.
No system has the right to tell me how I should feel or think and especially punish me if I don't comply....
System, I am done with you.
Only then can you be trully free.
Most relationships, and I don't mean couples, are thwarted by desire. "what can I get from you or from this encounter". what can I accomplish. It's like this Yoga thing that hit our culture. Everyone's doing yoga and they treat it like somesort of aerobics. These people are doing "power yoga". They are accomplishing something very important. "Here's how you do it to get the maximum benefits", etc... come join our club we have the best facility, the best teachers, etc...
They can't seem to get out of the race. Everything is about getting somewhere, always better....
I thought yoga was to get out of the race, to chill, quiet the mind and body. That means that I cannot have ANY expectation of outcome other wise I'll be preoccupied with reaching my goal. How can you relax when you have to get somewhere?
I've dropped out of the race. I don't buy this great retirement or this heaven or nirvana or enlightenment. It's all a trick! Someone is trying to sell you something. NO ONE can show how to become enlightenment because to "become" means that you're denying who or what you are right now and in that there conflict and where there is conflict there is no peace or enjoyment.
Friday, February 25, 2005
Tomorrow will never come...
It seems that all our live is spent on tomorrow or some betterment of ourselves. Somehow no matter what we have is just not enough. It seems to create a certain feeling of uneasiness inside, a certain dis-satisfaction and when I have that feeling I cannot enjoy or even see what's going on around me such as the wind in the tree branches, the birds sharing a tree with squirels on even the deathening silence of it all. Noooooo, I'm too preoccupied with my "career", my "future", will you like me, am I good enough, will I be rejected by the group. This happens in high school and throughout our lives. What a hell! My feelings and mental state depending on others. If there is such a thing as hell this would be it.
Now of course the "system" doesn't want you to think or be outside the box even if they tell you to.
If one person is not affected by the emotional manipulations of the group then he is a threat to this system. It's like having no buttons to push. Without these buttons they can't convince you to slave your whole life for a system that promises a beautiful retirement. Oh yeah! give me your prime lives. I don't buy it! Don't get me wrong, the system has its place. It's great to have a system for roads, buildings, electricity, water, etc... anything material. But this is where it stops.
No system has the right to tell me how I should feel or think and especially punish me if I don't comply....
System, I am done with you.
Only then can you be trully free.
Most relationships, and I don't mean couples, are thwarted by desire. "what can I get from you or from this encounter". what can I accomplish. It's like this Yoga thing that hit our culture. Everyone's doing yoga and they treat it like somesort of aerobics. These people are doing "power yoga". They are accomplishing something very important. "Here's how you do it to get the maximum benefits", etc... come join our club we have the best facility, the best teachers, etc...
They can't seem to get out of the race. Everything is about getting somewhere, always better....
I thought yoga was to get out of the race, to chill, quiet the mind and body. That means that I cannot have ANY expectation of outcome other wise I'll be preoccupied with reaching my goal. How can you relax when you have to get somewhere?
I've dropped out of the race. I don't buy this great retirement or this heaven or nirvana or enlightenment. It's all a trick! Someone is trying to sell you something. NO ONE can show how to become enlightenment because to "become" means that you're denying who or what you are right now and in that there conflict and where there is conflict there is no peace or enjoyment.
Now of course the "system" doesn't want you to think or be outside the box even if they tell you to.
If one person is not affected by the emotional manipulations of the group then he is a threat to this system. It's like having no buttons to push. Without these buttons they can't convince you to slave your whole life for a system that promises a beautiful retirement. Oh yeah! give me your prime lives. I don't buy it! Don't get me wrong, the system has its place. It's great to have a system for roads, buildings, electricity, water, etc... anything material. But this is where it stops.
No system has the right to tell me how I should feel or think and especially punish me if I don't comply....
System, I am done with you.
Only then can you be trully free.
Most relationships, and I don't mean couples, are thwarted by desire. "what can I get from you or from this encounter". what can I accomplish. It's like this Yoga thing that hit our culture. Everyone's doing yoga and they treat it like somesort of aerobics. These people are doing "power yoga". They are accomplishing something very important. "Here's how you do it to get the maximum benefits", etc... come join our club we have the best facility, the best teachers, etc...
They can't seem to get out of the race. Everything is about getting somewhere, always better....
I thought yoga was to get out of the race, to chill, quiet the mind and body. That means that I cannot have ANY expectation of outcome other wise I'll be preoccupied with reaching my goal. How can you relax when you have to get somewhere?
I've dropped out of the race. I don't buy this great retirement or this heaven or nirvana or enlightenment. It's all a trick! Someone is trying to sell you something. NO ONE can show how to become enlightenment because to "become" means that you're denying who or what you are right now and in that there conflict and where there is conflict there is no peace or enjoyment.
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
So I had this dream...
I was with my ex-girl friend cute young sister and we were about to have sex when her boyfriend knocked on the door and came in. He found us naked on the floor spooning. He then mumbled something as he closed the door and left. I could see him through my closed eyes.
Then J* got up and gave me this huge blue condom, I grabbed it and started laughing because this girl had way over estimated my penis size and as I'm about to convey to her this practical information I see her shoving her arm inside another blue giant condom. She was lubricating this inside of the condom with some kind of oil.
-What are you doing? I asked.
She looked at me with a surprised look and explained that it was for the betterment of sex.
I had to tell her that on the contrary, the inside of the condom should stay dry otherwise the sensation is weird because the penis ends up moving inside it and not creating any friction in the vagina...well you had to be there.
Anyway at this point the Austin the cat jumped on my chest because that's when I woke up.
Then J* got up and gave me this huge blue condom, I grabbed it and started laughing because this girl had way over estimated my penis size and as I'm about to convey to her this practical information I see her shoving her arm inside another blue giant condom. She was lubricating this inside of the condom with some kind of oil.
-What are you doing? I asked.
She looked at me with a surprised look and explained that it was for the betterment of sex.
I had to tell her that on the contrary, the inside of the condom should stay dry otherwise the sensation is weird because the penis ends up moving inside it and not creating any friction in the vagina...well you had to be there.
Anyway at this point the Austin the cat jumped on my chest because that's when I woke up.
So I had this dream...
I was with my ex-girl friend cute young sister and we were about to have sex when her boyfriend knocked on the door and came in. He found us naked on the floor spooning. He then mumbled something as he closed the door and left. I could see him through my closed eyes.
Then J* got up and gave me this huge blue condom, I grabbed it and started laughing because this girl had way over estimated my penis size and as I'm about to convey to her this practical information I see her shoving her arm inside another blue giant condom. She was lubricating this inside of the condom with some kind of oil.
-What are you doing? I asked.
She looked at me with a surprised look and explained that it was for the betterment of sex.
I had to tell her that on the contrary, the inside of the condom should stay dry otherwise the sensation is weird because the penis ends up moving inside it and not creating any friction in the vagina...well you had to be there.
Anyway at this point the Austin the cat jumped on my chest because that's when I woke up.
Then J* got up and gave me this huge blue condom, I grabbed it and started laughing because this girl had way over estimated my penis size and as I'm about to convey to her this practical information I see her shoving her arm inside another blue giant condom. She was lubricating this inside of the condom with some kind of oil.
-What are you doing? I asked.
She looked at me with a surprised look and explained that it was for the betterment of sex.
I had to tell her that on the contrary, the inside of the condom should stay dry otherwise the sensation is weird because the penis ends up moving inside it and not creating any friction in the vagina...well you had to be there.
Anyway at this point the Austin the cat jumped on my chest because that's when I woke up.
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Azulik...a dream vacation!
Have you ever been to Tulum in Mexico? Well let me tell you it's awsome. Tulum is one of my favorite Mayan ruins because it was built right on the beach. It has 2 beautiful white sand beach and is enclosed by a privacy wall.
The place I'm talking about it Azulik. It's a wood and palapa cabana right on the beach.
The resort is clothing optional...need I say more. It's like heaven. Here are a few pictures.
The place I'm talking about it Azulik. It's a wood and palapa cabana right on the beach.
The resort is clothing optional...need I say more. It's like heaven. Here are a few pictures.
Azulik...a dream vacation!
Have you ever been to Tulum in Mexico? Well let me tell you it's awsome. Tulum is one of my favorite Mayan ruins because it was built right on the beach. It has 2 beautiful white sand beach and is enclosed by a privacy wall.
The place I'm talking about it Azulik. It's a wood and palapa cabana right on the beach.
The resort is clothing optional...need I say more. It's like heaven. Here are a few pictures.
The place I'm talking about it Azulik. It's a wood and palapa cabana right on the beach.
The resort is clothing optional...need I say more. It's like heaven. Here are a few pictures.
Saturday, February 19, 2005
Rat race
Every one is running, rushing, pushing, zooming by with huge Hummers, huge monster cars oblivious to the sky above, the air they breathe or those little people on the street. The quest for more is never ending, somehow whatever they have is not enough. When is it enough? Do we ever "get there"? Or is it just a long journey of wanting and yearning. Who is in charge? Who is in control of what's important in your life? Is it you or everyone else? Do you believe in heaven with white floating angels playing harp or 90 something virgins waiting for you. Do you believe in tomorrow.... I don't. My life is here now. I let the Mickey Mouse beliefs in Disney World.
Rat race
Every one is running, rushing, pushing, zooming by with huge Hummers, huge monster cars oblivious to the sky above, the air they breathe or those little people on the street. The quest for more is never ending, somehow whatever they have is not enough. When is it enough? Do we ever "get there"? Or is it just a long journey of wanting and yearning. Who is in charge? Who is in control of what's important in your life? Is it you or everyone else? Do you believe in heaven with white floating angels playing harp or 90 something virgins waiting for you. Do you believe in tomorrow.... I don't. My life is here now. I let the Mickey Mouse beliefs in Disney World.
Is religion useful?
It's seems like it's not. I'm not saying that religion is evil but when you look at our world, throughout history, we've killed and tortured more people in the name of some God or higher purpose and we're still doing it!!!
Friday, February 18, 2005
Is religion useful?
It's seems like it's not. I'm not saying that religion is evil but when you look at our world, throughout history, we've killed and tortured more people in the name of some God or higher purpose and we're still doing it!!!
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