Showing posts with label happiness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label happiness. Show all posts

Sunday, May 11, 2008

I'm home?


So here I am back in Guadeloupe.
It's weird being here...
I've been living in St. Louis for 20 years now and now I'm in Guadeloupe, my home country.
I feel like I know this place and at the same time I don't.
I operate through the system but I feel like it's a dream.
It's almost as if I'm still in St. Louis in the "real" world, the awake world but I can't do anything in it and Guadeloupe is the dream world where I move around and make things happen.
I have been painting again, which is good. I've sold both paintings I've made, which is better.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Xmas

It was 52F on Christmas day when I had a late lunch at Latchi's.
I drank too much warm Sake and played with the kitties.
I started my trek to her place in tears as I watched the highway go by.
I guess the sun was setting and the music was beautiful.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

A message from my friend Benny

About bombing NYC, Madrid & London

Dear friends,
These days we are all from London. Yesterday we were from New York and
Madrid.
Our duty is to keep on living with faith & love inspite of obstacles and
tragedies that we can found in our path through life.
It is a nonsense to darken our lifes, to get blinded by hate or pain and
definetely it is not a way to pay homage to those who died or have been
injured.
Let's cultivate and safeguard tolerance & happiness & : paradoxically,
it is the very best answer to intolerance and misfortune & tragedy.
Force will not change anything.
Violence will not change anything.
Terrorism will not change anything.
The enemy to shoot is not Occident, Orient, Middle east or Far East. The
enemy is simply fundamentalism and intolerance under any form.
So keep on laughing, smiling, living, understanding,loving &
transmitting this happiness and faith to our children. Because against
this no bomb, no religion, no political group can fight.
Think today how lucky you are. Be thankful for having a roof, eating
when you want, having freedom of expression, being surrounded by beloved
people, being able to do what you want to do with your life.
And SMILE all day long.

yours Benny

Friday, February 25, 2005

Tomorrow will never come...

It seems that all our live is spent on tomorrow or some betterment of ourselves. Somehow no matter what we have is just not enough. It seems to create a certain feeling of uneasiness inside, a certain dis-satisfaction and when I have that feeling I cannot enjoy or even see what's going on around me such as the wind in the tree branches, the birds sharing a tree with squirels on even the deathening silence of it all. Noooooo, I'm too preoccupied with my "career", my "future", will you like me, am I good enough, will I be rejected by the group. This happens in high school and throughout our lives. What a hell! My feelings and mental state depending on others. If there is such a thing as hell this would be it.
Now of course the "system" doesn't want you to think or be outside the box even if they tell you to.
If one person is not affected by the emotional manipulations of the group then he is a threat to this system. It's like having no buttons to push. Without these buttons they can't convince you to slave your whole life for a system that promises a beautiful retirement. Oh yeah! give me your prime lives. I don't buy it! Don't get me wrong, the system has its place. It's great to have a system for roads, buildings, electricity, water, etc... anything material. But this is where it stops.
No system has the right to tell me how I should feel or think and especially punish me if I don't comply....
System, I am done with you.
Only then can you be trully free.
Most relationships, and I don't mean couples, are thwarted by desire. "what can I get from you or from this encounter". what can I accomplish. It's like this Yoga thing that hit our culture. Everyone's doing yoga and they treat it like somesort of aerobics. These people are doing "power yoga". They are accomplishing something very important. "Here's how you do it to get the maximum benefits", etc... come join our club we have the best facility, the best teachers, etc...
They can't seem to get out of the race. Everything is about getting somewhere, always better....
I thought yoga was to get out of the race, to chill, quiet the mind and body. That means that I cannot have ANY expectation of outcome other wise I'll be preoccupied with reaching my goal. How can you relax when you have to get somewhere?
I've dropped out of the race. I don't buy this great retirement or this heaven or nirvana or enlightenment. It's all a trick! Someone is trying to sell you something. NO ONE can show how to become enlightenment because to "become" means that you're denying who or what you are right now and in that there conflict and where there is conflict there is no peace or enjoyment.